God of the Impossible
There I slumped in our living room waiting for an answer. Time ticked on yet no answer would come. My eyelids became heavy ..... would I hear anything?
Nothing.... Finally His still small voice beckoned "Trust me for both". Faith filled my heart and I knew He had spoken and I could trust Him. No longer did I find myself looking at the outward circumstances, instead peace flooded over me for I knew the Lord had spoken.
There are times that every outward circumstance screams out "DON'T GO THIS WAY", yet The Lord clearly says, follow me I know the way.
Over three years ago the Lord told us to jump out of the boat. OK not literally, but it sure felt like it. We were "safe", had good jobs, friends, and a loving family near by. Yet God didn't want us to stay safe, He wanted us to be stretched and to trust Him.
So we obeyed, we stepped out of our comfort zone and announced we were going into full-time missions. One week later we lost our 32 week old unborn son, two months later our three year old went into emergency surgery with a brain tumor, one month later Bruce totalled his car, then the week we were to leave our three year old was diagnosed with Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis. What were we to do? God continued to nudge our hearts. . . We knew we were to stay the course.
Weeks before we were to leave we had enough money to cover our Family Discipleship Training School that would last for three months but after that we had absolutely no clue how God would provide.
Three years later I can testify that God is Jehovah Jireh, The Lord who provides. We have moved our family to Kona, traveled to Uganda on outreach and moved to the other side of the world to Perth. Bruce has assisted with a variety of ministry filming opportunities in Thailand, India, and twice to Indonesia. He has completed a film school learning how to communicate the gospel to an unreached people group and is embarking on a Film Production School on Monday to refine those skills and broaden his capacity for richer story telling. Do we have all our finances for this school yet? No, but that was one of the things above that God spoke clearly to believe Him for, so we continue to move forward knowing God will provide.
Most months our bills outweigh our income yet God has been faithful and we have no debt. God has proven that He is Jehovah Jireh. He is our provider, He will never leave us. Instead, when He asks us to jump out of the boat He will walk with us on the water.
God is the God of the Universe, He owns everything and can do the impossible.This also means we can't walk around with a poverty mentality. Therefore, if He says to give to someone we can't look at our bank account to determine if we should give, instead we need to say, yes Lord, and ask "how much?"
There have been months that our basics have been covered (rent, utilities and meals) yet the only extra funds we have are exactly what we owe for our tithe. Will we trust Him with the little?
With all my heart I desperately want to always trust Him with the little. How can He give us any more if we can't be trusted with the little? His Word says "Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much." Luke 16:10.
Today as we seek the Lord, let's join together and say "Jesus help me to be trusted with the little."
